The Lord keeps His promises

As the time of King David’s death approached, he gave this charge to his son Solomon: “I am going where everyone on earth must someday go. Take courage and be a man. Observe the requirements of the lord your God, and follow all his ways. Keep the decrees, commands, regulations, and laws written in the Law of Moses so that you will be successful in all you do and wherever you go. If you do this, then the Lord will keep the promise he made to me. He told me, ‘If your descendants live as they should and follow me faithfully with all their heart and soul, one of them will always sit on the throne of Israel.’ 1 Kings 2:1-4 NLT

This morning I almost cried in a coffee shop. I was reading 1 Kings 2:1-4 where David is on his deathbed sharing his final words with his son Solomon. What struck me was the declaration of God’s sovereignty that David clung to in his last moments. I have heard so many promises declared over the past years and many of them I believe were straight from the heart of God. I haven’t seen some of them come to pass but as time moves along they do so more and more. David knew, at the end of his life, that God is faithful. I know this too.

When God tips your world upside down, watch for the coins that fall from your pockets

Thirteen years ago now, I lived on a missions ship that was sailing around South East Asia. Each member of the crew had a full-time job that kept the ship running smoothly - I cleaned the bathrooms and washed everyone’s clothes. Unfortunately our department kept encountering a problem that would drive people crazy. We kept losing their socks. Now you may laugh, and I may join you, but to some of those crew members this was serious business. There were regular visits to the laundry by frustrated people demanding that we return their socks. How hard could it be for us to accomplish the simple task of washing, drying and returning their clothes? How incompetent were we? Very, obviously.

Now, don’t get me wrong. We took the complaints seriously and made every effort to keep track of every item, searching high and low. We analysed and re-analysed every system, tweaked and refined our processes, trained and retrained our staff, informed and educated our users...but at the end of the day we kept losing socks. Still to this day I have no idea where they ended up. But in the process I discovered a truth that would change my attitude towards life’s frustrations.

See, I wrestled with God about this conundrum. I kept saying to Him, “Jesus, it would be very easy for You to solve this problem and put a stop to all the frustrations and negative exchanges that occur because of it - show us the socks!” But He did not. Instead He transformed my frustrations into a deep sense of empathy and comradery with all those involved and we saw the lighter side once more.

This past year of life has been my toughest so far. Developing an anxiety/depressive disorder has shaken every part of my world and taken me to the extremes of human emotions. All along I have wrestled with God. “You could very easily solve what’s going on and the pain can stop.” But He did not. Instead those extreme emotions resounded inside of me and resonated with those around me.

And I realised that God is comfortable with emotions. He’s comfortable with His emotions and He’s comfortable with ours. In fact they are like treasured possessions that bleed from us. Psalms 56:8 mentions God collecting our tears in a bottle. I’m sure I have filled a warehouse over the past year. But there was a point when the pain stopped. The anxiety stopped. The depression stopped. And a strange sense came over me that not one emotion had been wasted. The warehouse was full and nothing would go unaccounted for.

Reaching those places ready

Recently a very dear friend prophecied over me during a service at church. One suggestion she made during that encounter was to write down what I'm believing for in different areas of my life. That has stuck with me over the past few weeks. I have been drowning in my circumstance, unable to see outside it's walls because of all the uncertainty it entails. Looking beyond, I've started to build a list of things I'm believing for. It may be beyond my control to make them happen but there are things I can do to be ready when they do. I've begun thinking about what I can do now to 'reach those places ready'.

One Thing I Know

For I know  that  my Redeemer lives, And He shall stand at last on the earth. Job 19:25 NKJV

It's been a while since I've visited this blog. In fact I remember the last entry was written the day after I had a massive panic attack. A lot of everyday things in my world have become extremely difficult over these past 6 months, one of those being to pour life out of my lips (and my fingertips) so I had a break from writing this blog. I've still been spending time daily reading the Word, working my way from Genesis through till I reached Job these past few days. When I read the verse above I knew I had to write again. For I may not know what or why or how these days shall unfold but this thing I know - my Redeemer lives and He shall stand at last on the earth. His purposes, His glory, His love and His goodness shall become clear through it all.